Cheyenne4

Hi there. I’ve been long gone from this site for far too long. I wanted to prove to myself I could do it alone. However, I just can’t. I need structure. I need to set aside time everyday to log what I eat and to write in the blog. I have previously done the teams and stuff, but I don’t think I will do that. Although I like having some level of support, that became too much of a responsibility and I couldn’t keep up with so many people’s stories and everything. But I really hope that I can blog every single day. I have gotten back up to 195 pounds. For anyone who remembers that boy I was enthralled with, well I got him! lol…we dated for like 6 months but recently broke up. I’m not crushed, as it wasn’t all I hoped it’d be. But he’s still an amazing person, and we’re still great friends. He’s a very busy person, and perhaps in the future when his priorities can allow for a girlfriend, things may change. but for now I need a change for myself, for the better. Nothing like a break up to get a girl back on track. Summer begins in 4 days for me, and I PLAN to dedicate this summer to getting back on track and being able to bring stability of exercise and diet back into my life. I always feel and look better when I’m eating healthily and doing something great for my body. I don’t see myself as FAT, but certainly someone who can lose weight. I would love to lose about 25 pounds this summer. I know that’s quite a bit for a short amount of time, but losing it is one thing. I will need to learn to keep it off which will be the real challenge. These next few days will be rough to get on here, because I have finals. But I had some time so I wanted to write this now. As of now I will be working on what I eat, but the real serious diet and exercise will begin Friday, the first solid day of summer for me. And with some support and dedication I hope I can keep this lifestyle….forever!

Gosh, it’s beautiful here in MASS today! 75 degrees is quite the change from the cold rain and floooding that’s been going on lately! I’m just so excited about the weather! i was out on the trampoline all day! If I was jumping, I was talking a walk or playing frisbee! I didn’t go to the gym, pool, or tennis courts today. BUT I did all that stuff I already said, and I did 50 hand stands on the ground and 50 front hand springs on the trampoline! wooo what a workout that is! I ate really well, and am anticipating a good weigh in this week

I wish it would just stay warm, it keeps me motivated like nothing else can!

Hey guys. So I was wondering if any of you ever see something and just think its beautiful!? Like a specific body type, or feature. Maybe something you really want to see on yourself? Because (idk why) But I think protruding collar bones are just beautiful! I always have, and I want it so bad. I’m a bit discouraged because I’m not sure I have the body structure to ever be able to see them like i want (on myself). My collar bones are really high and I have a lot of muscle in my shoulders from swimming…so I wonder if I’ll EVER see them like i want to. I kind of doubt it, but I have noticed I can see them more than before. When I’m nervous (kinda weird) I tend to feel my collar bones lolll. And lately I can actually feel them more! It excites me and I hope in the future I can have that body! I think it looks so elegant and beautiful…

So I don’t know if it’s okay to bring this sort of thing up here…but I don’t really want to bring it up with my real life friends I try to keep it mature on this site, b.c I am young and I know many of you are older, more mature, and many have husbands, fiance’s and serious boyfriends. BUT, im young, and still dealing with those silly crushes i suppose…

But I’ve been into the same guy for a long time. I think I actually mentioned him once a few months back. But anyways, I really have liked him for a while, and it’s not very common for me to be interested in anyone. So, it’s not just some silly one week crush. and heres the issue…

So i LOVE my best friend. She’s great. We have fun together, and laugh and are always together. But something really bothers me about her and I dont know if it’s a silly thing for me to get bothered by…but it seems like a valid reason to be upset to me…

Dominique KNOWS I really like Jeff. I don’t exactly advertise it, but shes my best friend, of course she knows. And Dominique has a BOYFRIEND. Not just a silly hook up thing; they’ve been together for over 2 years. Yet, Dominique flirts with Jeff ALL the time. I mean, all the time. It’s not like I’m imagining it, everyone notices. I’ve had people ask me if she is still with Tommy (her bf) because they think she has a thing with Jeff. The strangest part is, she has even told me she’s attracted to Jeff; admitting she has feelings for him. Back in November I confronted her about it because it bothered me, and she said she’d work on it…nothing has changed. And I know (even tho she tried to act like she wasnt) she was mad when I even brought it up. And other people have brought it up bc a few others know I like Jeff and Dominique says….well we’re just friends and Cheyenne needs to get over herself thinking she has no chance with Jeff if I talk to him. Its not like that. I don’t have any chance because she FLIRTS with him nonstop. If they were just friends it’d be fine. But she doesnt act that way. Not to mention she’s a little petite thing and every guy thinks shes hot. Im…not. Jeff actually has shown interest in me lately, but I feel like I still have no chance bc of DOminique. Like yesterday I asked her if she was going to the school’s talent show tonight. she said she couldnt because she “had no money to spend.” and today Jeff asked me to go, and I was like, oh cool. And he was like, yeah Dominique already said she could, too. WTF!? that means that she said yes just because Jeff asked her. That’s wrong.

I just want to know if I’m being unreasonable here…or what you guys think. Maybe some insight from people who have been there/done that/seen that will know what to think? Because I’m at a loss and it really upsets me. I feel like she doesn’t care about me, bc she wouldnt pursue a person she knows I like if she did. Not to mention she shouldnt be pursuing anyone bc she has a boyfriend!

ughh..does anyone have anything to say about this :/

Hi guys! So I have been trying and trying and TRYING to lose weight. I’ve gotten to 185-188 (its always hovering around there) and i CANT get lower! It’s really starting to aggravate me. I want to buy a bikini for summer! I already have it picked out and everything! http://www.express.com/catalog/product.jsp?productId=26285&parentCategoryId=2&categoryId=467&subCategoryId=465&Mcat=465&Mcatp=cat_467&Mppg=0&Mpos=2&Mcatn=Tops&Mcatpn=category&Mpg=SEARCH%2BNAV&Mpper=3&user_att_name=Interest&user_att_value=Email&Mrsaa=*&Mrsavf=*&Mcatg=cat_2

That’s the suit I want to wear. It’s so cute!! (well I think so :P)

So anyways, since I’m stuck at this terrible weight, I think it may be time to see a nutritionist. I was wondering what you guys know about them, if any of you have used them, and how they’ve helped you? I will do some research this afternoon but I thought I’d ask people I trust and have had first hand experience. So if you have had a nutritionist, have one, know someone who had one, or can give me any insight on how they help and if they’re a good idea, let me know!

OKAY….I have joined livestrong, and it’s great. I log my food each day and my exercise…and it gives me a net calories. Today I had a net calories of -195….now I thought you were suppose to have a net calories of about -500!? But then I heard that you should eat more than you exercise b.c your body burns like 2000 calories when u sleep!? Can someone please help me out!?

Hi guys! It’s just day one of the week, but I’ve done real well. I was curious, how much fiber should I have in my diet? Like today I had fiber one bread (two slices) with lunch. And I had a fiber one shake for breakfast! I forgot I was eating fiber one bread :p So I thought it might be too much for one day once you add in other fibers from other foods. so what should I be taking in for fiber per day?

Hellooo everyone. I haven’t had much to say lately. not much has been going on. But I wanted to check in. I’ve done real well in the eating department lately. I hope to see 185 by Saturday. I think it’s a realistic challenge! Tomorrow I have another meet. I hate meets >( But yesterday I broke my 500 freestyle time! So I was very happy about that. Maybe tomorrow I can even break the new time? Hope everyone is doing well!

yayyy! Our team won the meet! I won all my events, too It’s a good dayyy!

So glad to be back on track! Today I ate very well, and had swim team, and it feels good to be in the swing of things and not feeling super full! I haven’t weighed since Sunday, b.c Monday and Tuesday I didn’t do great and I didn’t want to get discouraged! So tomorrow morning I’ll weigh and hope to see 187 still, and will lose from there.

I hope everyone had a great day!

Breakfast: fiber one bar.

Lunch: Chicken Caesar salad…mmm

Dinner: Nothing special tonight. Special K Cereal, with something…not sure what. maybe an apple or banana with peanut butter?

ps: I have a meet tomorrow :0 wish me luckkk!!!!